Back to the Essence Part 2

So, If we are going to throw our lives headlong into God's hands, it might be suggested that we had better know what we're doing.
I had been thinking what an ultimate risk it is to do it. When you come down to the crunch, It's you giving your life up for somone you really havn't completely figured out yet. But I think now that it would be better defined as the "Ultimate Trust".
It is this reason that I believe discipleship or some knowledge of God is reasonably proper for somone before they take this leap. (Lest, dare I say it, their relationship be shallow or rediculous.) Yet, there is most certainly a feeling of risk within trust.
This Jumping in Ultimate trust is a thrill I've experienced 100% unfailable thus far. Plus, it's one crazy ride.

Back to the essence Part 2.2
I guess that last part is unnecessary reason again, since I feel that part of trust is letting go of what I know to be shurefire in a physical sense. The difference is not acting on account of what I know about life, but what I know about God. Life could be any mixture of wonderful and horrific occurances, but the point is that this reality shouldn't really matter. The focus needs to come off of me and on to him. I can't be the receiver in a one way love relationship! I like what Paul says as a statement of response to Jesus' act of love in Philippians 3. Paul presses "on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me."(NIV)

In Matthew 10:39 Jesus says the following:
"Whoever finds his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life for my sake will find it. "(NIV)
(It's this emptying of myself that I've found myself facing. I must find my life by losing it. I must trust in God and face his definition of "life".)