Do I really trust God?
Is trusting God letting go of the steering wheel and closing your eyes on the highway ?
Or is trusting God believing in him but sticking to a "God helps those who help themselves" motif?

I've found myself not wanting to tithe 10 percent of my income recently because I've been in need of funds. God knows I need it. He won't demand it of me right? But He is loaded, why should I presume that I'll ever be in need? Why shouldn't I honor God with my money in the hard times and then trust him for something a little extraordinary? Probably because I like to keep myself as a fall back. I like to control myself. Very practical and socially acceptable.
Pretty stupid.

A certain teacher at school recently went out on a limb to suggest that the Bible does not support lying for good motives. God wants the truth. Why shouldn't we trust Him to work the rest out.
I'll be quite honest. I tripped over this one. Corrie Ten Boom's "The Hiding Place" always comes to mind on this topic: if I were hiding Jews in my house and their lives as well as my life and the lives of my family depended on me telling a few German Milita that we had nothing going on, would I tell that lie? Yes that is an extreme example, but nonetheless... Do we trust that God can provide? No, because we're fools to say something like that, or Yes because we need to honor him and accept the power and provision that he will accordingly provide to us as His children?

I like to fly by the seat of my pants. I'll tell you that. Many great times have come from falling off the end of my rope. But I do like to have some insurance. I like to have a fall back, an asset or a plan B.
However, once in a while I'll come up against someone who dared to throw themselves into the military of God- letting him worry about the bankbook and just doing what he commands.
The testimonies of Brother Andrew are among my favorites. But then there are the guys I actually know who live like this. They are frequently looked on sceptically and sometimes are left few or alone in their convictions. But maybe for these few God rubs his hands together and starts spinning his potters wheel saying, "oh yes, this is going to be a good one."
Can I be like that?
"Oh sure, it was easy when i was young and the meals were coming off the parents bill, but now I've got to look out for myself- even Paul made tents."
"He who fails to plan, plans to fail"
"Easier said than done, recourses have to come out of someone's pocket."
"um... I'll think of an excuse after watching some more commercial TV"

But this is speaking on finance matters.

At Bible college we have "ministries" that most everyone is involved in. One of the things I do is work with a youth group. Sure, I can go and be all I can be to demonstrate the given Life of Christ through whatever I do at that youth group. However, what if God wants something different. What if He wanted, say, prayer and music all night with none of the games or media I was working on?
"But God... It won't work without me!"
"Kids don't want to pray!"
"I don't think you even belong here. Go away and I'll continue on my stupid little social club. "

Do we dream too small?
Is our God too safe?